If someone were to ask any of my friends, they would say yes, I am an emotional person. I take almost everything to heart, and sometimes I get too wrapped up in situations and it’s hard for me to let things go. Maybe I care too much about other people, but at least I know that about myself and I can learn to deal with it so I am not the one getting hurt in the end.
In the summer of 2006, right before my birthday, I had one of my best friends tell me that she did not want to be friends with me anymore. To make things worse, it was through a mailed letter. To say the least, I was devastated. We had been friends for six years and that was all going down the drain for reasons that seemed ludicrous to me. All of my other friends obviously comforted me and told me to forget her and she obviously was not a good friend after all. Everything my friends and family were telling me basically went in one ear and out the other. I am not the type of person who can walk out on a six year friendship with my head held high and forget it ever happened. Although I did agree with my friends and family that I obviously did not need someone like her in my life, it was still extremely hard.
Then, in the summer that just passed and almost to the date, I had the same thing happen to me all over again. Another best friend of mine who has had some of her own issues in the past decided she wanted nothing to do with me anymore. I had just about gotten over losing one best friend when everything started up again for me. Losing this friend I think hurt me more though because although she had many personal issues in the past, I stood by her when basically everyone else turned their backs on her. I was a shoulder to cry on and I was available day and night, and this is what I get. Of course after this happening twice to me, I start to look at myself. What’s wrong with me? Why is this happening to me? Am I doing something wrong? I could beat myself up about it all I wanted, but what I really had to realize is that I am truly better off without these people. Of my nineteen years in this world, that is truly one of the hardest lessons I have ever had to learn.
Although being an emotional person has its downfalls, it of course has a positive side too. Because I am an emotional person, I have a big heart and a lot of love to give. I believe that my close friends, boyfriend, and family can see that. When it comes to romantic relationships, I’ve always had a hard time decided how much or how little of myself to give. In the back of my mind, I was always afraid of getting hurt even if there was no reason to worry. The relationship I am in now, I am able to share my feelings, but I honestly do not think I am giving 100 percent of myself to him. In this case, I am not afraid of getting hurt because I know how he feels about me, but I guess my mind is just used to thinking that way and I am having a difficult time allowing my walls to come down completely.
Music can really move me and sometimes even bring me to tears. I remember the first time I heard the song “Alyssa Lies” by Jason Michael Carroll and I honestly did not listen to the words. The next time I heard it on the radio, I listened to exactly what he was saying and it nearly made me cry. The song is about how a little girl is being abused at home and no one at school will speak up and do something about it. She lies to everyone and doesn’t tell anyone someone is hurting her. The little girl eventually dies and then lies with Jesus. I also remember hearing on the radio about how a teacher played the song for students in her class and told them to write down what the song meant to them. After listening to the song, many of the students reported that they were being abused or they knew someone being abused. Many of the children were taken out of the abusive situations. That really touched me that something as simple as a song could touch others so dramatically. I have added a link to the lyrics of the song in the “My Links” section to the right of my blog. The song also plays on the website so you get a chance to hear it too.
I think something almost everyone can relate to is images of 9/11. I know whenever I see a picture of fire coming out of one of the towers, rescuers getting people to safety, or just people running through the streets of New York, it really tugs at my heart. I was fortunate enough to not know anyone personally who was involved in 9/11but it still makes me very emotional. I can’t imagine what all those people went through that day and how the families dealt with losing a loved one so tragically.
I received a 46 on my EQ test which I guess means I am pretty emotional. Obviously I already knew that about myself but the test just kind of confirmed it for me. Right now, I am 19 years old, a sophomore living at college, dating someone and dealing with discovering who my true friends are. I’d be curious to see what my score would be if I was a different age, lived at home, didn’t have a boyfriend and had a different situation with my friends. I think it would be quite different because my emotions are incorporated into all parts of my life and not just one.
One reason it is good to be in touch with your emotions is because your emotions can affect your health. On the familydoctor.org website, they state that there is a "mind/body connection" where "your body responds to how to think, feel, and act." After a very stressful event, you could develop a stomach ulcer or high blood pressure. If you are able to control your emotions and know exactly how you feel, you should be able to keep not only yourself sane, but also keep your body healthy.
Being an emotional person can be good at times and not so good at times. I am at least lucky enough to know this about myself and am able to control my emotions according to the situation by using logical force. Unfortunately, I have not yet perfected this controlling of emotions, but I figure I have some time for that. In the mean time, I can live my life teaching myself what’s worth getting upset over, who’s worth loving, and when it’s time to let go.
In the summer of 2006, right before my birthday, I had one of my best friends tell me that she did not want to be friends with me anymore. To make things worse, it was through a mailed letter. To say the least, I was devastated. We had been friends for six years and that was all going down the drain for reasons that seemed ludicrous to me. All of my other friends obviously comforted me and told me to forget her and she obviously was not a good friend after all. Everything my friends and family were telling me basically went in one ear and out the other. I am not the type of person who can walk out on a six year friendship with my head held high and forget it ever happened. Although I did agree with my friends and family that I obviously did not need someone like her in my life, it was still extremely hard.
Then, in the summer that just passed and almost to the date, I had the same thing happen to me all over again. Another best friend of mine who has had some of her own issues in the past decided she wanted nothing to do with me anymore. I had just about gotten over losing one best friend when everything started up again for me. Losing this friend I think hurt me more though because although she had many personal issues in the past, I stood by her when basically everyone else turned their backs on her. I was a shoulder to cry on and I was available day and night, and this is what I get. Of course after this happening twice to me, I start to look at myself. What’s wrong with me? Why is this happening to me? Am I doing something wrong? I could beat myself up about it all I wanted, but what I really had to realize is that I am truly better off without these people. Of my nineteen years in this world, that is truly one of the hardest lessons I have ever had to learn.
Although being an emotional person has its downfalls, it of course has a positive side too. Because I am an emotional person, I have a big heart and a lot of love to give. I believe that my close friends, boyfriend, and family can see that. When it comes to romantic relationships, I’ve always had a hard time decided how much or how little of myself to give. In the back of my mind, I was always afraid of getting hurt even if there was no reason to worry. The relationship I am in now, I am able to share my feelings, but I honestly do not think I am giving 100 percent of myself to him. In this case, I am not afraid of getting hurt because I know how he feels about me, but I guess my mind is just used to thinking that way and I am having a difficult time allowing my walls to come down completely.
Music can really move me and sometimes even bring me to tears. I remember the first time I heard the song “Alyssa Lies” by Jason Michael Carroll and I honestly did not listen to the words. The next time I heard it on the radio, I listened to exactly what he was saying and it nearly made me cry. The song is about how a little girl is being abused at home and no one at school will speak up and do something about it. She lies to everyone and doesn’t tell anyone someone is hurting her. The little girl eventually dies and then lies with Jesus. I also remember hearing on the radio about how a teacher played the song for students in her class and told them to write down what the song meant to them. After listening to the song, many of the students reported that they were being abused or they knew someone being abused. Many of the children were taken out of the abusive situations. That really touched me that something as simple as a song could touch others so dramatically. I have added a link to the lyrics of the song in the “My Links” section to the right of my blog. The song also plays on the website so you get a chance to hear it too.
I think something almost everyone can relate to is images of 9/11. I know whenever I see a picture of fire coming out of one of the towers, rescuers getting people to safety, or just people running through the streets of New York, it really tugs at my heart. I was fortunate enough to not know anyone personally who was involved in 9/11but it still makes me very emotional. I can’t imagine what all those people went through that day and how the families dealt with losing a loved one so tragically.
I received a 46 on my EQ test which I guess means I am pretty emotional. Obviously I already knew that about myself but the test just kind of confirmed it for me. Right now, I am 19 years old, a sophomore living at college, dating someone and dealing with discovering who my true friends are. I’d be curious to see what my score would be if I was a different age, lived at home, didn’t have a boyfriend and had a different situation with my friends. I think it would be quite different because my emotions are incorporated into all parts of my life and not just one.
One reason it is good to be in touch with your emotions is because your emotions can affect your health. On the familydoctor.org website, they state that there is a "mind/body connection" where "your body responds to how to think, feel, and act." After a very stressful event, you could develop a stomach ulcer or high blood pressure. If you are able to control your emotions and know exactly how you feel, you should be able to keep not only yourself sane, but also keep your body healthy.
Being an emotional person can be good at times and not so good at times. I am at least lucky enough to know this about myself and am able to control my emotions according to the situation by using logical force. Unfortunately, I have not yet perfected this controlling of emotions, but I figure I have some time for that. In the mean time, I can live my life teaching myself what’s worth getting upset over, who’s worth loving, and when it’s time to let go.
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